I have never really understood that word, “ho.” Not as in the connotation that one might us it as a derogatory statement towards a female, or in high school jokingly towards one’s female friends if one is a female herself, on occasion, but just as the hey-let’s-go-to-some-archaic-land sense. If that is truly the sense in question, I am not really sure.
Anyways… I have arrived at that wonderful place which is called Homeness! Fire, food, dog, family, all delivered. And the Most Amazing Christmas Store was, as usual, most amazing, although for Lisa’s sake I was kind of disappointed because there were no snails or sheep. So, in her honor, I am going to include two nice pictures in lieu of actual Christmas ornaments….
And yes, I’m probably stealing these pictures… but I didn’t Photoshop out the watermarks, which I am totally capable of doing, so it’s okay, right?
About an hour outside of Searcy, the little Camry driving in front of us did a crazy-swerve all over the lane, the kind you do when you’re bored and unlikely to hit anything by being a little silly. So in response, I swerved, too, and they noticed. This initiated a weird sort of car waltz, which freaked out Lisa to no end, so I eventually stopped—and considering how tired I am, this is probably a good thing—but still it was sort of fun to have this random interaction with these people.
We also saw about a million old, fixed-up fifties cars driving back towards Bald Knob, usually passing us in packs of ten or so. Lisa took pictures. At the same time, huge flocks of geese were flying overhead. We rolled down the window to try to hear them—the geese, that is, or ducks, or whatever they were, some sort of migratory animal—but the car noise was too loud, sadly. One day, I’m going to stop and try to listen.
During the last two hours, to keep ourselves awake, we listened to a million “crazy car songs,” from “Boom Boom Pow” to “You Belong to Me” and “Here in Your Arms” and “Get Low.” Oh and “Womanizer,” of course, can’t forget that one. So if you’re having a bad day, please just picture Kellum and Lisa, ah-hem, getting down with their bad selves. If Joey (my dear beloved truck) had had a head, he would have been shaking it. Trust me. Good times.
Also, a transcription of a short conversation:
Lisa: Yeah, you definitely need someone you can totally be yourself around.
Me: I think I am myself around boys most of the time. I mean, mostly, but I guess I just have a lot of different parts of my personality. Like I mean there’s parts of myself I’ll just show to my husband.
Lisa: Um, Kellum….
Me: Wait… that sounds really awkward, that’s not what I meant!
[Insert Lisa giggling and Kellum turning rather red]
And another thing:
Lisa: Wow, look at the cotton! It just amazes me that it grows in the ground!
Me: But… where else would it grow?
Lisa: Um… sheep?
I seem to remember having a similar conversation with Michael Wright last year….
When we were on the last leg of the roadtrip today, crossing from Corridor X to the last little stretch on I-65, the entire sky behind us lit up and turned a burning pale gold. Despite the fact that yes, pollution is bad, and yes, dust gets in your lungs and does bad things to you (thank heavens I don’t know what yet; that’ll come in A&P II), and yes, smog burns your eyes and kills old people, when the sun is setting, all of that particulate matter can make the sky look pretty incredible. Though really for all I know it wasn’t particulate matter at all, but just the way the clouds were. Either way, it was gorgeous.
I’ve been backreading a little bit on my blog, going back and reading what I wrote this time last year…. So strange. It’s like I left a letter to my future self, and now I’m reading it. Funny, but I don’t feel I’ve changed a bit, despite everything that actually has changed. Have I learned anything? Will I make the same mistakes again that I have before? Am I in any way different?
Heaven knows.
I found a poem that I like. Or rather it expresses things well. It’s sort of like a poetic version of my creative nonfiction essay. It’s called “After the Movie,” by Marie Howe. Since I’ve lost all ability to write poetry, it seems (I really could write it before though! I really could! What happened?! What has happened to me?!), I am going to let you read this instead, and bid you goodnight.
